When I refused to confess my sin, my body wasted away, and I groaned all day long. Day and night your hand of discipline was heavy on me. My strength evaporated like water in the summer heat. (Psalm 32:3-4)
When I refused to confess my sin…
Have you ever done that? I have. It is emotionally and mentally exhausting to the point that physical energy can be lost. That is what writer is explaining. Could it be that the mental and emotional fatigue many of us face each day comes from our refusal to confess our sins?
“Confess” is a religious word. It is the action we are expected to take when we sin against God and others. We don’t always have to confess our sins to others, but we should always confess our sins to the Creator.
When we confess sin we are agreeing with the Almighty that the attitude or action under question is wrong—not because we feel it is wrong or because society tells us it is bad or because the behavior created uncomfortable consequences—but because we are consciously aware the deed offended God. Confession is saying, “God, You are right about this, and I am wrong.”
Confessing wrong is challenging because we have to acknowledge God as our moral authority. It is an act of humility and being humble does not come easy. What comes easy is pointing out those who behave worse than we do. What comes easy is blaming someone else for our behavior. What comes easy is justifying our bad behavior with really good excuses.
…your hand of discipline was heavy on me.
God loves us too much to let us be comfortable with sin. Mentally, emotionally, and sometimes even physically, He intervenes. We call it guilt or regret or “I wish I had not done that.” Sometimes He allows our bad behavior to set into motion a series of consequences that we simply cannot undo. His hand can be heavy, but love is always His motivation.
When we don’t recognize His discipline (or if we just flat out ignore it), the pressure He applies does not go away. It remains, and if we are not careful, we will make things worse. We are not trying to make it worse. We are trying to ease the discomfort of our guilt, but we are not very good at forgiving ourselves. Instead, we will invite a harmful attitude or habit into an already bad situation. Emotionally we might become bitter or angry or embrace a victim mentality. Habitually, we might seek escape on Netflix, or drink a little more, or depend on an unhealthy relationship, or even begin some type of substance abuse. All because we simply would not confess the original sin. We stubbornly compound our sins and the interest on that kind of spiritual debt makes life exhausting.
It doesn’t have to be this way. Let’s agree with God about our sins. Go to Him. Confess. The Hand that is pressing heavy on you will also carry you.
Enjoy this song. I hope it encourages you: The Strength to Let Go by Switchfoot
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